I am 26!!!
Another day has nearly passed. I will be 26, 2 days after.
26 Yrs!! Isn't it a pretty long time? Very long indeed!
I do not remember my childhood much.(Baby days i mean) Though my parents say I was a quiet boy.Never cried much.
Then came schooling days.I was this studious type, always with books.I used to be teased regularly for being with books.(Even by my parents) I loved books. Infact whenever anybody asked me about my hobby,I would innocently say 'Studying'. I also had these crazy fascinations for comics.Boy I loved those twinkles,chacha chaudharys,etc., And if i met my cousin sis, who was also mad about comics ,boy ...we would spend all our time with comics.
Well my fascination with studying made me get 1st or second rank every time from 2nd to 8th. But my image was of studious type. There were people who never used to let me play any game with them stating that I was this bookish type,would not like playing cricket or any other fun games.I wanted to break free also. I wanted to them to know that I too loved freaking out. I was also a human being with feelings.
9th Standard...I told myself I will break free from this studious image of mine.I started participating in all Extra-curricular events (except dance...tht was not my cup of tea).Dumb charades was my favorite forte.I had a team of 3 always together. We had a whole dictionary of actions..we had started winning ,I had finally broken free of the studious image.
But slowly my score dropped.Rather at a fast pace.The person who had come 2nd had now come 20th in class. The whole class was shocked. All my friends(even unknowns) had just 1 question. What happened to you ? Well all these years I had no problem making friends. Who did not want to be a friend of a guy coming 1st or second always!! But now those that appeared close friends,were now hardly interested in me.Well now I knew who are my true friends and who are not.
Well with my bad score at 10th I did manage to get into a good school.(With some running around the school).
Next 2 yrs were literal hell. There was these students who were all studious types.(what an Irony...now I was calling them studious types) Well I hated studies by now. Here I met Akshay who was so focussed ,but never you can make out by his attitude. His only aim was to get into the IITs.I learnt one thing from him,'if you want something real badly, you will get it'.Though he could still never instill the sense of studying.( He was a total freak and then studying at night).
I was now going to college. Had performed real bad in CET and had got mechanical engg in some college.Was my life going to be a drag again? No, I did not want it to be a drag. I had this weird thought in my mind. I did not want any of my previous friends in my college. I wanted new friends,new environment,new hair style ,everything new...a new life...I dunno why? Yes I had complete new friends,but nothing else changed in my life. I was living the same old dragging life. Staying at home, sometimes going to movies in the same 2-3 halls. Sometimes would go to same chinese restaurants..I wanted to go to discos ,go to parties..Again I wanted to break free.But all my friends never went to discos, or if they did go ,would go with their girl friends leaving me alone.The fact, that sometimes if they did want me to go ,i did not get permission to go,did not help.
It may sound weird ,but at the end of 4 yrs of my college life,if somebody asked me about the happening places in my city...I would be a dumb spectator.(I still do not know the happening places in the city I was brought up,I do want to know them).
The fact, that I hated mechanical and I had taken it only because that was the best choice available then (how stupid of me),made my life even more a drag.
I did take part in my favorite extra-curricular activity dumb charades. But in college my best was antakshari(Reached 3 yrs finals and won all 3 out of 4).These things were just small good things,in a long dragging life.
Finally with pathetic scores once again I had passed engg. The question that was haunting me from the time I had joined engg,was in front of me.Do I really want to work in mechanical field.All through my life I loved computers. My fascination and craze with computers started from 9th was still there. But how can I jump streams. Should I follow the herds of people trying for MBA? Well at that time ,seemed to me the best option. I started preparing for MBA. Never in my life I had worked so hard. Had given up everything. Sleep,food and MBA studies were the only things in my life for next 9 months.All my friends were getting jobs, but I never bothered to even apply.I wanted to make my life count.I wanted to show to people that I am not another person in the crowd. If you want something,you can get it.
Alas my quest for MBA ended with me getting gr8 scores,but only 1 call.That too did not clear the 2nd round( Don't know y? )
Now there was reality in front of me. I was nearly 1 yr old pass out and without any job. I started applying ,but all the places found it tough to convince them I was preparing for MBA,so did not bother to apply.They thought I am lying.Mind you I only applied for jobs in the IT field. Though things were not my side ,I never gave up( I never give up easily)
I joined a java course in the meanwhile. As soon as I finished the course ,in 1 month I got a job. I slowly stared enjoying my job, but after a while I started getting bored.
Now I have switched job and am in this new place. Wow what a roller coaster ride I had past 8 months.Emotionally,physically,personality wise many changes.(These last months are anyways in my other blog articles)
Failures,failures,failures....is this life all about.Failure in studies, failure in life's simple enjoyments,failure at home(I was this lazy lad at home)...
26 yrs is a long time!! Good or not so good I was into this big boat of Life which took me and shook me and showed me various things.Also made me learn so many good or not so good things in life( More good than not so good).
Though I keep hoping My life becomes less of a drag and I come to know the aim I have in my life.
Till then c ya all,hope to meet you next yr with a better life..Syanora!!!
26 Yrs!! Isn't it a pretty long time? Very long indeed!
I do not remember my childhood much.(Baby days i mean) Though my parents say I was a quiet boy.Never cried much.
Then came schooling days.I was this studious type, always with books.I used to be teased regularly for being with books.(Even by my parents) I loved books. Infact whenever anybody asked me about my hobby,I would innocently say 'Studying'. I also had these crazy fascinations for comics.Boy I loved those twinkles,chacha chaudharys,etc., And if i met my cousin sis, who was also mad about comics ,boy ...we would spend all our time with comics.
Well my fascination with studying made me get 1st or second rank every time from 2nd to 8th. But my image was of studious type. There were people who never used to let me play any game with them stating that I was this bookish type,would not like playing cricket or any other fun games.I wanted to break free also. I wanted to them to know that I too loved freaking out. I was also a human being with feelings.
9th Standard...I told myself I will break free from this studious image of mine.I started participating in all Extra-curricular events (except dance...tht was not my cup of tea).Dumb charades was my favorite forte.I had a team of 3 always together. We had a whole dictionary of actions..we had started winning ,I had finally broken free of the studious image.
But slowly my score dropped.Rather at a fast pace.The person who had come 2nd had now come 20th in class. The whole class was shocked. All my friends(even unknowns) had just 1 question. What happened to you ? Well all these years I had no problem making friends. Who did not want to be a friend of a guy coming 1st or second always!! But now those that appeared close friends,were now hardly interested in me.Well now I knew who are my true friends and who are not.
Well with my bad score at 10th I did manage to get into a good school.(With some running around the school).
Next 2 yrs were literal hell. There was these students who were all studious types.(what an Irony...now I was calling them studious types) Well I hated studies by now. Here I met Akshay who was so focussed ,but never you can make out by his attitude. His only aim was to get into the IITs.I learnt one thing from him,'if you want something real badly, you will get it'.Though he could still never instill the sense of studying.( He was a total freak and then studying at night).
I was now going to college. Had performed real bad in CET and had got mechanical engg in some college.Was my life going to be a drag again? No, I did not want it to be a drag. I had this weird thought in my mind. I did not want any of my previous friends in my college. I wanted new friends,new environment,new hair style ,everything new...a new life...I dunno why? Yes I had complete new friends,but nothing else changed in my life. I was living the same old dragging life. Staying at home, sometimes going to movies in the same 2-3 halls. Sometimes would go to same chinese restaurants..I wanted to go to discos ,go to parties..Again I wanted to break free.But all my friends never went to discos, or if they did go ,would go with their girl friends leaving me alone.The fact, that sometimes if they did want me to go ,i did not get permission to go,did not help.
It may sound weird ,but at the end of 4 yrs of my college life,if somebody asked me about the happening places in my city...I would be a dumb spectator.(I still do not know the happening places in the city I was brought up,I do want to know them).
The fact, that I hated mechanical and I had taken it only because that was the best choice available then (how stupid of me),made my life even more a drag.
I did take part in my favorite extra-curricular activity dumb charades. But in college my best was antakshari(Reached 3 yrs finals and won all 3 out of 4).These things were just small good things,in a long dragging life.
Finally with pathetic scores once again I had passed engg. The question that was haunting me from the time I had joined engg,was in front of me.Do I really want to work in mechanical field.All through my life I loved computers. My fascination and craze with computers started from 9th was still there. But how can I jump streams. Should I follow the herds of people trying for MBA? Well at that time ,seemed to me the best option. I started preparing for MBA. Never in my life I had worked so hard. Had given up everything. Sleep,food and MBA studies were the only things in my life for next 9 months.All my friends were getting jobs, but I never bothered to even apply.I wanted to make my life count.I wanted to show to people that I am not another person in the crowd. If you want something,you can get it.
Alas my quest for MBA ended with me getting gr8 scores,but only 1 call.That too did not clear the 2nd round( Don't know y? )
Now there was reality in front of me. I was nearly 1 yr old pass out and without any job. I started applying ,but all the places found it tough to convince them I was preparing for MBA,so did not bother to apply.They thought I am lying.Mind you I only applied for jobs in the IT field. Though things were not my side ,I never gave up( I never give up easily)
I joined a java course in the meanwhile. As soon as I finished the course ,in 1 month I got a job. I slowly stared enjoying my job, but after a while I started getting bored.
Now I have switched job and am in this new place. Wow what a roller coaster ride I had past 8 months.Emotionally,physically,personality wise many changes.(These last months are anyways in my other blog articles)
Failures,failures,failures....is this life all about.Failure in studies, failure in life's simple enjoyments,failure at home(I was this lazy lad at home)...
26 yrs is a long time!! Good or not so good I was into this big boat of Life which took me and shook me and showed me various things.Also made me learn so many good or not so good things in life( More good than not so good).
Though I keep hoping My life becomes less of a drag and I come to know the aim I have in my life.
Till then c ya all,hope to meet you next yr with a better life..Syanora!!!
posted by Rajat's world at 3:28 AM
1 Comments:
Hey you look to be down and out.Well buddy do remember one thing when you get friends do not judge them.Nicer one's will stick to you.
Be what you are because the ones that matter won't mind and the ones that mind do not matter .....
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